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I’ve been too busy to keep up with this journal as of late. So much to do. I’ve been to Lincoln County and Jerusalem at this point…
I coupled with Torry-AE003489 again today. There’s just something about the way her breasts swing during coupling that I find soothing.
She always asks the same question: “Why don’t they want our help?”
And I always have the same answer: “I don’t know.”
I had to come up with something selfish to satisfy Joe Kemo as to why I was supporting him. Isn’t it enough that I want to see LA’s people fed?
Torry-AE003489 had to go on duty at the diary so I ended up coupling with a member of the Heimer strain I met in the corridor outside my dorm. I’d never been with one of her strain… it was unusual. She kept wrapping me in silk.
She asked me what an Ambassador was. I almost gave her the same answer as I gave Torry-AE003489: “I don’t know.”
But I played it straight. She’d never met anyone who’d been Outside, not even one of the Traders. So I explained.
She went patronizing rather quick, clicking in an odd way.
I tried to grin and bear it. It happens so often. My brethren don’t understand why I’d want to go outside. They treat me like I’m crazy for going.
Sometimes I feel crazy. Shrugging into the garments, wonderfully bright though they are. Smelling their confusion and hate and pity… But worse is smelling the pity from my brethren, when they think I’m crazy.
The Heimer woman stank of pity, so I excused myself even before I learned her full designation.
All my dormmates are Traders, or people who support Traders. They understand. Blue-45D23901 could tell I was down, so we coupled until she fell asleep. I could smell some pity on her as well, but it was more kindly meant.
I think I’m going to turn in myself, I’m tired and I’m babbling…
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